And The Bomb Drops
Last Friday, I lost my job.
It was completely unexpected (to me) and out of the blue. I’m not going to go into too much detail here because everything you put on the internet is public and permanent, but suffice it to say that this throws a serious wrench in our plans. Suddenly all the money we were going to put into making this house a home, now has to go towards paying the bills. The great irony of it all is that now I have all this free time every day to do renovations and complete projects, but no resources to do them with.
I never realized how much I valued my job/my career until it was taken away from me so abruptly. I was the type who used to say that if my husband made enough money, I’d quit my job and become a housewife. But now that that’s essentially what I am, I realize how much this is not for me. I want to be out there, doing my job and kicking ass. I want to don my business suit and tote my cup of coffee and go out there and do something. I miss the feeling of being busy, of having a schedule, of being part of a team.
I’m trying not to get too down about this whole situation, but it is scary. I’ve applied for seven jobs already, and have spoken with four recruiters with multiple more opportunities for me. I know there’s another job out there for me, and one that will be even better than the last one. But for now, it’s scary.
So, for now, house projects will be light. Our major renovations will have to wait. Our dreams of hosting a housewarming/come-see-our-new-house party are postponed. In the meantime, I’m here at home all day trying to organize things and clean up the remainder of our move-in mess, and do some small projects here and there with what I have on hand. All the while trying to stay positive and remember that this too shall pass, and this will be a fun story to tell our hypothetical grandkids someday.
I’m so sorry to hear this news! I have been following you since your days on Weddingbee, and this is just disappointing. I hope that this transition doesn’t take long for you, and that you find a new job that you love very soon. I can understand the stress of buying a house and then money disappearing so suddenly, and I wish you and Jason the best in the next few weeks (I’m hoping it won’t take months, so I’m sticking with weeks! :) )
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Haha, I’m hoping it takes weeks and not months too – fingers crossed! :)
Kelsey – I’m so sorry that happened! Sounds like you are taking the right steps and will land on your feet but it can’t be easy for now. At least it didn’t happen before the wedding! (weddingbee reader)
Very true, if it had happened before the wedding we might have had to postpone, which would have really been awful. And at least it didn’t happen while we were house shopping either, because that would have meant we couldn’t buy a house. So if it had to happen, I guess this is the “best” time. I’ll take whatever bit of positivity I can get!
So sorry to here this news, Kelsey. I hope everything falls back into place quickly for you. Liking the feeling of being busy, of having something to do, is something I love too. Even something as simple as a semester break in school makes me antsy, so I’m sure it’s messing with your head a bit as much as your financial plans for the house. I’ve got my fingers crossed for you!
I’m so sorry for you, Kelsey. I followed you here from weddingbee and I’m so looking forward to what you plan for your house and your life.
I’m crossing my fingers all the way from from Germany for you – if that doesn’t help, I don’t know what else should. Let’s hope it really takes only some weeks before you find a new job you love!
holy moly, girlfriend. hang in there! <3
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